When I started blogging I had one focus : Write. That's all I really wanted to do : Express my self, my ideas, my values. Yet it's becoming increasingly difficult for me to just sit down and do the writing.

I now spend a good half to two-thirds of my day dealing with emails, conference calls, etc. etc. Not that I mind.

There is a lot of offline work that needs to be done most of the time before I can even do my work online. It's just that I feel "broken down" by all the "other work" I am expected to do but can barely accomplish.

I am living in the flesh that sexist comment about "I need a wife" (was it Gloria Steinem in one of her more inspired times?)

Yet, I mean, I am a wife. A working mother and wife. Grock knows I don't need a damn wife. What I really need is a staff.

I need not only an assistant. I need a housekeeper, a bookeeper, an events coordinator, a tutor for the kids and an afternoon babysitter.

Of course, the truth I "need those people". The problem is that I need a substantial operating budget --and that money I just don't have.

My computer is dead and I am trapped in the digital claws of a Dell PC but I have not been able to run out the door to get my Linus to the mac hospital.

Today is Tuesday and it's the day I have to take the kids to their gymnastics class. What does that entail? I'm glad you asked:

1. Prepare their afterschool snacks